Hope Speaks Louder: Charlotte Underwood

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I'm a 22-year-old from Norfolk, UK. I openly suffer from severe depression and anxiety with further diagnosis pending. My story is a unique one, I am both a person who has survived a suicide attempt and turned my life into the one I dreamt of and never thought possible but I am also the daughter of a suicide victim, 

My father died in 2014 when I was 18 and he was the kindest man, he also did lots of work to prevent suicide and gave everyone mental health support, even the prisoners he looked after. 

For a long time I was abusing substances and sex, I was very ill but refused to admit it and I didn't want help because I was scared and felt alone. I lost track of who I was and found it easier to pretend to be someone else than admit that I needed help and maybe my life needs to change. I am now married, moved out and have a little dog, all things I never thought I would have. 

I am a growing mental health advocate on Twitter (@CUnderwoodUK), have written a book on my father's suicide, not as a self-help but to provide a friend to those bereaved by suicide as there is not much help out there and it is lonely.

I blog often a few times a week (charlotteunderwoodauthor.wordpress.com) and have recently started writing poetry. I have found that a mixture of learning self-respect and remembering to say no, following my own path, dreams and goals, bouncing on my trampoline in my living room (You can't help but smile when bouncing) and writing daily, has helped me miles in my recovery. 

I am on medication, I'm on my third and fourth one and they help, though they don't make me different, they just prevent a crisis, I see my GP monthly so we can both keep an eye on my mood and prevent risks and finally, after 8 years of pressing for more support. 

Currently, I am being looked after on the CPA (Care Program Approach) and will begin therapy in due course. I am so excited to start and I am confident that I am going to be able to live a life where I am no longer shackled by my illness, there is no cure, that's true but between helping myself and the help from mental health, I know I will manage it. 

My only goal now, my passion and dream, is to carve a world where stigma is gone. Where there are more support and treatment options from mental health and where suicide no longer becomes such an ever-growing cause of death.

And more importantly, if you or someone you know is struggling with suicide, addiction, self-harm or depression - please free feel to reach out. Use any our resources, call the suicide lifeline (1-800-273-8255) or text 741-741. 

Credits: This entry is written in entirely by Charlotte Underwood. Music by Logan McElroy and Shawn Davis. The X-Files are property of Fox. We do not own nor claim any rights. The Flash & Man of Steel are property of Warner Brothers & DC Comics. We do not own nor claim any rights. Networked by That's Entertainment!

Charlotte Underwood

Charlotte is the author behind the book, After Suicide, and a devout mental health advocate.